To My Mom on Mother's Day

All that I am, or ever hoped to be, I owe to you Mom.  Happy Mother's Day.  I wish I could be there with you.  Miss you terribly xx 

My mom is still not well, think it will take a long time for her to make a recovery.  She still has moments where she will phone and ask me where I am, but at other times she remembers.  

I pray that I will have her for a few more years still.  I need her.  The last time we spoke, she told me that her leg is better, but she still can't use her arm or hand properly.  I wish I could have my mom back already.  She still thinks she is going to come here in August. I just left it at that, and didn't let her think otherwise.

Mother's Day Letter to My Boy

It's Mother's Day today and my heart is so happy it could burst - I can't wait to meet my son.  It feels like I  gotten to know this little boy so well already that I should recognize him when they hand him to me.  


I have felt him move and kick so many times already, and the best part is that for now he's just mine.  How difficult is it to let them into the world where you can't protect them from everything, and where you have to share them with others?  


To my little boy,


I've been waiting and praying for you for so long, and this year we were blessed. 

I loved you from the very moment I suspected you were here, and I worried about whether or not we would get to keep you. 

I promise you that I will be the best mom that I can be.  I want you to know what it feels like to be loved.  As much as I wish you will grow up to be the perfect man, the truth is we can only give you guidance and instill in you the values and principles that were instilled in us.  One day the choices you will make will be your own but I pray that you will grow up to be gentle, and that you will know right from wrong. 

Your daddy is the most incredible man, and I pray that you grow up to be a little like him, but that you will still be your own person.  He's strong, kind and gentle - I just know he is going to be an amazing father to you.  We've had our tough times, and ups and downs, but our relationship is that much stronger because of it.  I can't wait for you to get to know him, you are going to love him.


They say the first woman a little boy falls in love with is his mom.  I am so excited for the day we get to meet you, and for the day I get to hear you call me 'Mommy'.  You have stolen a place in my heart that was empty. 


I love you my baby boy. 


Your mommy
  
"Lord, build me a son, who will be strong enough to know when he is weak, and brave enough to face himself when he is afraid, one will be proud and unbending in honest defeat, and humble and gentle in victory."

Mother's Day

Another year, another Mother's Day.  We didn't have either of our moms with us this year, DH's mom is touring Japan and my mom is so far away.  I miss his mom a lot.  I think she makes up in some small way for me not being able to have my own mom near.  I got a big bear hug from my DH, think he knows how I'm feeling, he's become rather good at that.  He reads me like a book. 
 

Oh, my car turns 1 this month. 

Mother's Day

It was Mother’s Day on Sunday.  Another reminder of what would have been.  My husband is so special, he bought me some chocolate and wished me Happy Mother’s Day anyway, and said that he’s so sorry for what happened earlier this year.  I love him so much.  I tried not to shed any tears, but they just started falling down and I couldn’t control them at all.  I know it will happen one day, I hope it will happen one day, one day it will.

What Makes a Mother?

I thought of you and closed my eyes

And prayed to God today

I asked “What makes a Mother?”

And I know I heard him say.

“A Mother has a baby”

This we know is true

“But God can you be a Mother,

when your baby is not with you?”

“Yes, you can,” He replied

with confidence in his voice

“I give many women babies,

when they leave is not their choice.

Some I send for a lifetime,

and others for the day.

And some I send to feel your womb,

but there’s no need to stay.”

“I just don’t understand this, God

I want my baby to be here.”

He took a deep breath and cleared his throat,

and then I saw the tear.

“I wish I could show you

what your child is doing today.

If you could see your child smile

with the other children, and say…

“We go to Earth to learn our lessons,

of love and life and fear.

My Mommy loved me oh so much,

I got to come straight here.

I feel so lucky to have a Mom,

who had so much love for me.

I learned my lessons very quickly,

My Mommy set me free.

I miss my Mommy oh so much,

but I visit her every day.

When she goes to sleep,

on her pillow’s where I lay

I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek

and whisper in her ear.

‘Mommy don’t be sad today,

I’m your baby and I’m here.’”

“So you see my dear sweet ones,

your children are okay.

Your babies are born here in My home,

and this is where they’ll stay.

They’ll wait for you with Me,

until your lesson’s through.

and on the day that you come home

they’ll be at the gate for you.

So now you see what makes a Mother,

it’s the feeling in your heart.

It’s the love you had so much of

right from the very start

Though some on Earth may not realise,

you are a Mother

until their time is done.

they’ll be up here with Me one day

and know that you are the best one!”

Written by: Jennifer Wasik in memory of Zachery Thomas Wasik.