Premonition?

My mom's always been a tiny bit strange, but tonight I wasn't sure how to react to what she had to say.  I checked my phone and had a few missed calls from her, and started to panic in case something bad had happened.



Her budgie died today and she was feeling heartsore and needed someone to talk to.  I tried to make a few jokes to cheer her up, and we laughed a little bit.  We carried on chatting and all of a sudden she said on the ceiling she sees a perfect baby in a womb.  I felt a bit uncomfortable, and didn't really know what to say.  What could I say?  I guess things that happen to us hurt our parents too, when they would move heaven and earth to prevent any harm from coming to us, and take away any pain.  I then told her about our appointment with the FS in December, and said I would let her know how it goes and what he has to say.


Deep down in my heart I have hope.  Every day I hope.  I once read something along the lines of "you have a lot if you have hope" - I need to make sure that I don't run out.


Today I really miss my mom.  When she was here I wished she would go, I just wanted to be alone to deal with things.  We don't always get on that well, but today I want her here.  I could hug her to say I'm sorry about her budgie, and she could hug me back, the way that only moms know how to do.

What the heart has once owned and had, It shall never lose......

Other things may change us, but we start and end with family.  ~Anthony Brandt

Some see a hopeless end, while others see an endless hope.  ~Author Unknown