Missed-My-Birthday.

I didn't post on my birthday last month, I wasn't in the mood for it this year.  I normally love birthdays but I felt like giving this one a miss, so silly but I couldn't face this birthday.  Maybe next year I'll have an awesome birthday.  I won't miss it. 

Little ache in my heart.

I was busy having my nails done yesterday and a lady walked in with her daughter and a friend - she was sending them both in for a mini mani and a mini pedi for her daughter's birthday.  The two girls were so excited, giggling as they chose their nail varnish colours in pinks and purples.  The birthday girl asked her mom what her next birthday surprize is, and her mom told her she's going to have to wait and see and then turned to me and smiled - I don't know what came over me, I almost burst into tears but managed to crack a smile back at her.



I wondered if I will ever have a daughter who I can bring in for a mini mani when she turns 12?  I wondered again if my baby would have been a little girl?  I wondered if I will one day be able to plan surprizes for her, if my little girl will be blonde, if her eyes will be blue or green, if she'll love me as much as I'll love her?  I wondered if I'll ever get to experience that. 



I was envious of that lady, and wondered if she knows how blessed she is to have that little girl of hers. 



As I wondered all these things I had a little ache in my heart. 

Happy Days.

Started my new job this week, and so far so good.  The people are really nice!  Imagine my surprize...I don't have much else to report, except that it's really busy.  I don't think I'm going to have much of a bleeding in period here, but that's all good - I'm ready for it. 


Our offices are really nicely painted, all black and white.  We move to Jhb next year so then it will save me quite a bit on petrol.


It's our year end function next week, eeek, and apparently we close from the 10th December to 10th January.  Doesn't really feel fair that I get a whole month off after just starting.  What if I forget everything I've learnt?  Sjoe, hope not.


So far I've had no issues driving from Jhb to Pretoria, huge relief.  It's 53km from home but luckily I can drive straight through, against the majority of the traffic.


Happy days are here again (it seems).