Last day tomorrow.

Tomorrow I say my goodbyes at work, and as much as you may want something to end, saying good bye is never easy to do.  I have an exit interview at work tomorrow, not really sure what they feel they need to ask me?  I've planned to have some well deserved me-time this week.  Going for my hair, having a mani and pedi, going to see Dr B on Friday for a checkup anyway seeing that my December appointment is so long away.  


On Monday I start a whole new chapter in my life.  The year is almost done, I pray that the next year brings great things, and I make it further down the road to healing - I have no idea how long this road is going to be, but I've been walking since February, and it hasn't been easy.

Clearing out my old blog...

I'm clearing out the last bit of my old stuff on my macbook pro, and my old blog, which I did using iWeb.  It's the easiest thing to use!  Really going to miss it.

GOATS!

I felt awful today, woke up with a huge headache and generally crappy feeling at 4h00 this morning.  I dragged myself out of bed and went to take some tablets, and crawled back under the duvet.  Needless to say I almost couldn't get up for work, and when I eventually did I made a few trips to the bathroom.  Not nice throwing up and shooting water from both sides...  especially on a Monday.


Got in to work late, and eventually left after lunch time.  I didn't feel like eating the lunch today.  Anyway I was feeling really sorry for myself and just wanted to get back into bed, when all of a sudden I had to STOP on my way home.  You won't believe this, but there were 3 goats and a stray dog, blocking my way.  GRRRRR!  If I wasn't feeling so crappy I would have taken photos.


Spent the afternoon sleeping, and woke up to check emails.  I started cooking burgers and wanted to die from the smell, so DH had to finish making his own dinner. 


I'm going to have a piece of toast with marmite on and then go to bed.  I hope I get some tlc, feeling very sorry for myself today.  


I'm a shivering, nauseated mess right now.  BLEH.


Besides the above, I'm ok.  


Only a few days left till I start my new job.

Premonition?

My mom's always been a tiny bit strange, but tonight I wasn't sure how to react to what she had to say.  I checked my phone and had a few missed calls from her, and started to panic in case something bad had happened.



Her budgie died today and she was feeling heartsore and needed someone to talk to.  I tried to make a few jokes to cheer her up, and we laughed a little bit.  We carried on chatting and all of a sudden she said on the ceiling she sees a perfect baby in a womb.  I felt a bit uncomfortable, and didn't really know what to say.  What could I say?  I guess things that happen to us hurt our parents too, when they would move heaven and earth to prevent any harm from coming to us, and take away any pain.  I then told her about our appointment with the FS in December, and said I would let her know how it goes and what he has to say.


Deep down in my heart I have hope.  Every day I hope.  I once read something along the lines of "you have a lot if you have hope" - I need to make sure that I don't run out.


Today I really miss my mom.  When she was here I wished she would go, I just wanted to be alone to deal with things.  We don't always get on that well, but today I want her here.  I could hug her to say I'm sorry about her budgie, and she could hug me back, the way that only moms know how to do.

What the heart has once owned and had, It shall never lose......

Other things may change us, but we start and end with family.  ~Anthony Brandt

Some see a hopeless end, while others see an endless hope.  ~Author Unknown

Dr's Appointment, Check!

Finally managed to schedule my doctor's appointment.  We are seeing Dr G on 13 December 2010, at 11h30.  Waiting sucks, but I'm relieved that it's been done!

So, 2 months to go...

New beginnings...

In 21 days time I start my new job.  While I'm looking forward to the change, I'm really going to miss my team, they are awesome.  Sniff!  But it was time to pick myself up, dust myself off and make a change.  


I'm ready for a fresh start :)


In the mean time, I'm trying to hand over/ train the new guy, sorting out some things here and there, and arranging a Spa day for my team at Mount Grace.  Lucky buggers!


Today I suffered from internetlessness, that was bloody awful to say the least!


I still need to finalize my appointment with the FS.  I think I'll phone tomorrow.  I've received the form that we need to fill in, woweee!  I can't for the life of me remember when I sprouted boobs?  Among other things?


I guess I better try and remember or find out very soon!


New job = less stress
Doc appointment = knowing properly what's going on with my innards


Both of the above hopefully = me smiling!


All three of the above = happy husband!